I can’t believe I have lived in Couer D’Alene for almost a year. I think about the person I came here as and the person I am now. I have come so far when it comes to my relationships, assessing my needs, managing my emotions. Recently I have been receiving a lot of encouragement from those around me. Almost every conversation I have is inspiring or encouraging. It feels like springtime. The birthing of something new.
For those of you who don’t know, I will be moving to Rathdrum. Which at first was hard for me to come to terms with. I love my apartment and honestly, if they didn’t raise my rent as much as they did I would have stayed. I signed my lease sight unseen because they weren’t done being built. They happen to finish right before I needed to move. Finding them was all God. When I heard the price I jumped (as I do with most things). But as the day came closer to pick up my keys, I became nervous. Was my furniture going to fit, where was my cat’s massive litter box going to go? Would there be room for my plants?
Friday before work I went to pick up my keys. The property manager opened the door, and I must have made a face because he asked if it was what I expected. I said I didn’t know what to expect. But I was pleasantly surprised. My bedroom was a little bigger. I have a much bigger patio. I can hear the birds which reminds me of home. The energy is just better.
After seeing it I am starting to get excited to mold the space and settle in. It will be an adjustment. But I don’t remember who I was talking to but the Lord knew I needed a new space. Sure I love my apartment, but I have cried many tears here. It has been a hard year. A painful year as I learned things about myself and navigating a new city and new people. My apartment was a perfect stepping stone. A place to break chains but it was never to stay and the Lord knew that. This new apartment feels homier. It sounds silly but it feels like it’s a clean cut. Something we don’t often get. I can leave the chains where they fell and walk freely into what God has for me.