Twenty Seven

What better way to celebrate your birthday than writing a blog. I will be the first to admit that this is a weird birthday. Although that isn’t really saying a whole heck of a lot. When I was kid I wasn’t the biggest fan of my birthday. For several reasons, I was not a fan of getting older. But I also had a hard time when everyone elses friends when all out for other peoples birthday but not for mine. But this was a self fulfilling prophecy. As an adult I now know people aren’t mind readers and if I don’t tell people what I want how could they possibly meet unknown standards. It was increadible unfair of me.

This birthday isn’t weird because I am getting older. It isn’t because it isn’t special. I have love overflowing and numerous people sharing incrediable kind words. I guess there is this part of me that has always envisioned what my life would look like in my late 20s. Which I have offically hit, and I guess its like my life isn’t really that.

When I was graduating college the first time I thought I would easily be married and have a kid by now. Sure the idea of having a kid right now is crazy to me but you get where I am coming from. My life as amazing as it is, but it is not what I would have envisioned for myself or what I woudl have picked out when I was in my early twenties.

There is some comfort in this idea that I am not where I envisioned my life to be. I know that if I had married younger my life would look a lot different. I may not have gone back to nursing school or packed up my life and moved across the country. I know that its okay my life isn’t waht I envisioned it to be, but I also know. is okay to greave the plans we have made for ourselves. Its okay to be sad that your life isn’t what you thought it would be even though you are living out a dream of yours.

In my twenty seventh year I will continue to grow and follow the path that God has for me. I will continue to push myself to be a better Christian, a better friend, a better cat mom. I will allow God to birth new ideas, new passions and new dreams. I don’t know what this year is going to hold but I choose to be excited.